Tht Girl

2011-11-20T20:09:00.001+08:00

we walked in the drizzle today.it was cool.

2011-11-07T21:28:00.001+08:00

I need you so much now.But do you know?

2011-09-22T11:10:00.000+08:00

22092011

today marks the end of Prelims 2.

i am tired.
beyond words' justice.
want. a. deep. long. sleep.

2011-09-17T11:54:00.002+08:00

On the phone with <3 now.
its been sooooooo long since i've last posted.
finally here to update! (:
its been sooo eventful lately.

its now Prelims 2.
last 4 papers next week.
starting checking of scripts on next friday.
&&&&& Farewell "11 is next next Friday.
on the 30th!
special day <3
muahahaha, happy much....
mixed feelings.
oh well, then soon after its O's already.
much still left to be done.

looking forward to travelling @ eoy.
but cant bear to leave my boyfriend behind.
): poor boy.
he MUST miss me.
i will miss you too. (:
promise to write, even if the letters don't reach you then.

JIAYOUS!

2011-05-16T18:49:00.002+08:00

15th May.

here i come.
my blog is soo sooo dead, its pathetic.
ahh, i miss blogging so much, nah, i miss loads of things.
i miss living life, or even having a life to start with.
hah.
okay, gahhhhh. ;/

sigh, here goes.
okay, its been eventful lately.

let's start with the deadliest, studies.
im still fucking flunking my studies, those crap aint getting to me at all.
AT ALL.
&its like one-effing-day lesser to Os with every day.
huge tears, i wanna get good grades )':
but those maths and formulas are making me go round in circles. D:
hai.

sitting for Mother Tongue Written on the 30th.
intensive's starting soon, 20th to be exact.
(WE're GOING FOR MACBETH ON 20th TOO!!)
im scared, nervous, worried.
i hope its gonna be passable.

june holidays are coming.
BUT, sec 4 life = no holiday.
SO, first 2 weeks dedicated to lessons.
next 2 weeks devoted to revisions.

preliminary round 1 timetable is out.
starting on the 27th of june & right up till the 8th of july.
YES, my birthday is not spared.
amaths and biology.
woww? :Z
i need to do well.
crap, i need to.

& fyi, sec 4's are gonna be having a career fair day on the 27th later this month.
& finally today i thought of what i wanna be when i grew up.
maybe, what i wanna be.
so here goes.

air stewardess - i wanna travel and see the world.
im fickle, i cant stay in one place i bet, and i want to go around seeing the world, taking loads of pictures,
infusing myself with the different cultures and learning cute languages of all over the world.
it won't be a long career but i wanna have fun and enjoy myself while im young and yeah im sounding cliche, hahahaha.

doctor - its something i had wanted to be since i was young.
i like helping people, well saving lives, but specialising in something is another thing.
dentistry? psychology? OG? counsellor?

16th May.
-continued.

sadly got back our tests/exams' freaking marks.
started with our chemistry paper.
flunked by 2 marks, looked through the paper.
felt like ripping myself to pieces.
i SWEAR to seriously double up my work, it's half-heartedly done.
(& its something i found out recently; that i do my papers half0heartedly. now that explains the marks. shall thank my biology tutor this thursday for saving me from my tragic situation. cliche? whatever~ )
& so that also means i flunked my chem grades for ca1 i think, cause it's of only two components.
& i doubt i passed the other as well, oh well.

then it was english.
im still failing my summary and goddammed situational.
fyi, since last mye.
so yes, mdm saha said she wanted to kill me.
i rather she did.
i did pass but it wasn't up to expectations.
it's like the worst i had ever done.
~~oh slap me.~~
i am so gonna pass my english; & get rainbow grades on top of that.
or i might just as well kill myself.
dammit. seriously.

& we got back our maths finally.
just passed it, felt like a retard.
a ~~TOTAL~~ retard.
im gonna buck up on my maths.
i must score for maths even if not a math.

and other than that today's physic was the first time we felt sleepy.
i think the M.F lines, the L/R hand rules, all the arrows and circles finally got to us.
our brains were sent on a merry-go-round.
madness.

& so there's no school tmr thanks to Vesak Day Holiday.
YIPPIE.
&&&&&& we're having our class photos taken on wednesday too.
happy needless to say, its our last photo in WW.
awwwwwwwww.
BUT we have rev-up on wed.
AND its verticle run.
like urgh again. -.-
sigh.

& so i asked a friend if i was the overbearing kind.
the reply was im not, im just caring so might be overbearing.
but the bottomline is im not ~~THAT~~ overbearing.
so yeah, i don't know what's wrong.
maybe it's just me?
temperamental, attitude, & i like to get what i want. (usually)
i ~~like~~ love being given in to.
but its also not like im not understanding.
okay so am i really just that difficult to deal with?
or what??
i have friends who say that im caring though i know i can also be real mean at times.
oh well, that's me.

okay gonna be late if i don't get away now & start getting ready for urgh chinese later.
ttyl peepoh.
muahh.

2010-10-05T12:20:00.003+08:00

hi peepoh.
been like....2 months and 5 days since i last posted.
many events have taken place too, was lazy and didnt have the time to update either..
so for now, the present(:

EOY is finally here.
not as in a very long finally, cuz this year has been a pretty fast one.
so yes, here we are now, taking our exams to see how much stuff we can retain in our brains.
our pityfull brains eh, no choice.
had languages paper 1 last wed, el paper 2 and ss yesterday.
average still okay i guess..
had math P2 today, 2.3 hours.
madness.
some can some cannot, one fourth of marks gone :x

6 more days to go.
jiayous everyone(:
can't wait for 15 october to arrive and have a blast then.

p.s, links shall be updated another time.

2010-07-01T23:58:00.001+08:00

HAHAHHAAH.
im very super de high and happy yesterday and today.
cuz i got pleasant surprises these two dayz!

monday.
it was back to school.
like omgaud, eww.
who likes first day of school anw.

tuesday.
rev up was cancelled due to the rain.
hahahah.
hope it rains tomorrow too.
me no wanna run 2.4, ater having 3 cakes in two dayz, im bound to mega fail it.

wednesday.
which was yesterday.
had cca.
mr chia talk talk.
then dismissed them to us.
then evon kay and nizel chua went to get the cake.
i didnt know at all.
yeap, very pleasantly surprised when they entered the hall, evon with cake in hand.
hahah.
i was shocked.
really wasnt expected.
wish came true, to celebrate a birthday with my cca, finally this year, it's come true. yay!
kejun nizel kiwi jieren and junhao knew i think.
all of them kept mum!
hahaha.
so yeah, we had a cake smashing good time.
ahahaha.
then went to play and talk and bond.
was fun!!
left me with leg cramps till today.
thanks guys, so much.
love love many many.

thursday.
01071995.
yeah, finally 15 today.
feels good.
thanks for the presents!!
school ended.
went home.
bathed ate.
then this someone take soooooo long.
so me decide to go down wait.
walked one block, saw them with a cake in hand too.
zc, yvonne and joshua met me.
had our cake near my place.
hahahah.
fun^^
yeah, they made me eat 3/4 of the cake.
like WOW.
hahahah.
then finally we went to jp.
walk walk talk talk.
then went ljs.
they dinner, me dinner too.
hahah.
sorry you had to finish my food too ><
they left for RV concert.
me went movieing. (:
esclipse, hahah, like blur blur.
1st time.
then homed.
had cake again!
wah.
i really cannot 2.4km tmr ah!
hahah.

thanks mtcs for everything today.
had much fun. ^^
thanks crewz, zc, yvonne, joshua for celebrating my birthday.
thanks to everyone for all the well wishes.
love you people ttm! :D

tomorrow is friday and boomz.
finally got through 1st week.
exams and tests schedules already given.
pow wow, stress on.
chiong ah!

thanks everyone for making my day.
really appreciate it many loads.
thanks for making me feel special.
god bless.

gonna change now, wash up and sleep!
bubbyez!,
sleep tight, sweet dreamz, sleep well. <3

2010-06-26T17:38:00.003+08:00

helllooooww.
school's reopening the following day.
mega O-M-G.
gosh.
1 mth gone just like that.
where did my so called 'holiday' go?
sigh, totally shagged.
new term's gonna be starting.
and there's a whole lot of events
gonna be hell B-U-S-Y lo.
also gotta pull up my grades, its double the stress.
left ss mindmap, a math el and chi to complete.
jiayous :/

there's something wrong with my blog icons.
i dunno howta change.
gahh):
so gotta wait till i figure out how to deal with it.
tips please. (:

keehee, JULY's coming le lehhh.
hehee. :O
excited as always.
but that excitement hasn't turned out that well these past few years.
haha.

im currently starving at home.
arrgh.
went to jp at 12 to meet aunt.
bought me a dress as a birthday present.
wasnt hungry so didnt eat.
came home no food.
-.-
so yea, im still starving and there's nothing i feel like eating around! ):
sadded.

weather's been so unpredictable lately.
quite cool in the morning but super warm at night.
what's wrong :/

and ive heard our OM mr goh is gonna be replaced by a former police officer of some sort.
wow, what's becomming of westwood.
is there a need for such measures?
haiz.
cant imagine the future.

boohoo.

cheers for the future!

2010-06-17T19:11:00.002+08:00

links have been updated.
lynn jonas ahhh, you no gimme link i cant link you up leyz.
1 week left to school reopening.
like damm?
7 subjs left to complete.
mostly half half done.
grrrh. :z

shall happy advance birthday to daryl here.
haha kinda weird.
i seldom do this kinda thing.
cuz coincidentally i have his pic!!
haha.
but damm blogger as always, have internal problems uploading.
so anw,

Happy 14th Birthday Daryl Gan.

2010-05-20T17:17:00.002+08:00

hiieyo peooopleee.

okie.
lets start monday!
got all, hmm mostly all of our papers back to check our marks.
yeap.
was total mega madness. :S
flunked 3.
my chem from last term jump 20 marks in mye paper.
but still wasnt enough to pull up my overall for the semester.
so yah, 1 already.
as usual, flunked my chinese.
now 2.
a math overall dropped 30marks from previous term.
mega siaoness.
already 3.
physics mye paper flunked like crap.
overall dropped like bout 10marks from last term i think.
total 4.
i flunked my chem & phy thanks to bloody keywords.
marks were there but no special word and it flies away.
gahh):
damm sad one.
like wth?
work so hard, improve a bit but the rest deprove like shit.
going at this rate, i am in danger of getting retained already.
sigh.
i wanna change tuitions.
get a fixed tuition schedule.
cuz now its like total crap.
mix up eveything.
gonna work hard.
study hard.
disappointed my parents again this term.
from 3 become 4. );
i swear im gonna pass all my subjects next term.
its only gonna take a lot more hard work & determination.
guess i didnt work hard enough this sem.
cant dilly dally anymore.
time for seriousness.
so i suppose my strict house regime has been extended.

dont feel like going tuition today.
sianz totally.
no mood.
and using spare phone cuz still havent sent for servicing and the battery total die already.
yeah.
gotta change my room light too.
spoilt.
sigh.

went science centre yesterday.
haha.
pixar exhibition.
funfun^^
hope to have more outings^^

toodles peeps.
gonna go bathe and leave for my dreaded tuition.
love.

2010-05-13T23:41:00.003+08:00

hi people.
yah. i know its late.
but i cant sleep until i post something.
though my mind's a blank.

stayed home today.
no paper no school.
its cool when exams are over
& you just get to slack and relax.

woke at 9++ today.
washed up.
had a chewy junior puff & vitagen for breakfast,
onlined.
chat with shan yan while we discussed our bio project and edited some stuff.
almost 12 then go bathe went out with mother.
met sis @ JE then went to NUH.
yah and blahblah.

then finally at round 4 done with everything & went down to have lunch at their canteen.
my usual roasted duck noodles.
& had a choco sundae. yummy eh.
'-'

then bused back to dover.
was 5:07.
from there trained back to Jp.
i kept going up/down wrong escalators.
& my mom was like practically shouting at me all the way as i kept making wrong turns and stuff.
& thing is i hardly heard her with my earpiece on, though it wasnt loud, i really couldnt hear her!
yea, my blur side again. :/
she noticed my 'not-myself' self.
but din say much.
shopped around a while.
even saw vk and chinboon.
then 6+ home.

blah blah.
dinnered.
tv while i painted my nails.
masked.
then got into bed after quite some time.
chat with mom.

so now on9.
yeah.
now im sleepy.

-brain, shut up & let me sleep good tonight kay.

p.s anyone wanna gym?!?!
hope to get better from this stupid flu sooon.
& btw sry bro couldnt join lunch today.

toodles lovely humans.
goody nights.

why do i miss you still?

2010-05-11T16:37:00.005+08:00

done with all papers today.
went home.
comped.
met up with mom at jp.
buy some stuff.
homed.
watched surrogates.
bathed.
now blogging.
el oral tomorrow.
yeah. and mye will officially end for me.

ive heard it, or so ive seen.
why must I be the last to know?
why.
there's no reason nor explanation.

wanting you to be wanting me.
no that ain't the way to be.
how I feel read my lips.
b'cuz im so over.

i hope i am.

2010-05-07T16:19:00.003+08:00

hiie hiieeee.
me dropin by to post my post. ^^

okie lets start tuesday.
had e math paper 1
& chinese paper 2.
math was okay~
chinese, *sigh* :|
& yea, i was sweatin like hell while doing my papers. -.-

wednesday.
we shifted the position of the fan.
so now it blows in more of our direction.
my papers kept flying as the fan is just behind me. :z
so yeah, these few days like in storm.
had english paper 2
& physics.
english was challenging.
physics, kinda difficult.
dont know what the hell i was doing.
almost dozed while doing the paper.
whole night i slept, graphs all over in my head.
didnt even know whether i was awake or not.
zZzZzZz.

thursday.
had elective geography
& A Math.
geog was okieee~
A math was total C.R.A.P
guranteed flunked :|
*sighh*

friday.
which is today.
sat for e math paper 2
& social studies.
e math was woohoo~
or at least i think it is?
much easier & so so different from a math.
hope can score well.
cuz failed my class tests. :/
social studies was rush rush.
time-tight lo.
a little challenging though.
hope to do okayy.

went marcus' place.
studied with bro, st, janice & gf came after some time.
left at 2.
bused home.
ate.
comping.
tired.
desperate for a GOOD rest.
soon ^^
after monday's chemistry
& tuesday's biology.
im done with written papers!
YAY!!
ending with english oral on wednesday.
thursday no papers for me,
friday - MARKING DAY!!
wheeee~ :D
freedom!, or so i hope.
outing next week? :D

cheers everyone!
all the best! ♥

re-reading the written stuff, re-winding the memories stuck, re-thinking the times we shared, im re-living our past.

2010-05-01T22:38:00.003+08:00

bigbig HELLO!
hey people.
MYE has already started.
had languages paper 1 on wednesday.
umm hope okayy.

yeap.
so think gonna MIA for a while bah.
all the best everyone.
i REALLY wanna do well. ):

love,
JULY!!♥

2010-04-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

hi all lovely people out there.
today is 18042010.
yesterday was WW 10th anniv.
finally, over & done with.
was a smooth one.
ceremonial part was wooh, no cock up^^
POWERRR~
after everything, went down to quadrangle.
played music.
yea, i dont deny imma bad dj. :O
havent gotten our badges yet though.
so yea..
at 130 went up to geog rm there to wait for mrsamuel.
supposed to meet from 130-145 to go over the investiture video.
waited happily, no one showed.
so in th end, went back down again.
then took breaks to walk round the school with junhao.
went he went up 3rd floor, followed.
& saw irene/ireena.
no, she saw me.
i was going up the stairs, she was sitting at the table right in front of the lift.
she saw me, she was like 'july, july!'
i din hear, till she shouted. ><
i turned, got a shock, & screamed my happy scream(:
ahahah.
ran over and gave her a big hug^^
chatted a while.
missed her so much.
been like a year since we last met):
haha, luckily mun invited her over.
yipeee!
yea, love her ttm.
cam whorred a bit (;
then said bye & continued with our walking.
as usual lorh, walked like 2-3 times, BORING.
carnival didnt seem like a carnival at all.
no essence/spirit in it.
so yea..
bout 320, apple came over.
then she ask we could play a song for her.
she stayed around for a while.
saw henna on her hands.
influenced me as well.
at bout 340 went to get it done on both my hands(:
sir was showing phobia so ran up to lab4.
just nice reach there, they started.
so end up marcus,darren,kje & me watched phobia.
hahah, damm funny luh.
evon & i kept screaming.
kj was tellin us to shut up saying it aint scary at all one bit.
yea.
so the guys were made to sit right in front of the screen.
where evon & i tried to hide behind darren.
& kept screaming at the top of our lungs. :o
hahah.
then bout 405 jiu ended le so all of us went back down.
packed up.
then k!w!! locked nizel in the ava room.
haha, he kept banging.
then they went to open up again.

was going up hall to keep some stuff when i saw msong.
told to go up find mrsamuel & get done with the video.
so yea, went up.
waited..'
pathetic video didnt meet the previous standard.
:/
so yea.
gotta redoooooo.
gotta scan through 40+ people's fb photos/albums to get pictures i needed.
pictures cant be repeatedly of the same person.
priority to be in school uniform.
pictures cant be of same scene.
subject must be in action & picture must be taken without the subject's notice.
talk about naturility.
yes, i was tasked since mid-november last year.
& kinda dead cuz it aint meeting the requirements.
investiture is on the 26th.
gotta report by 8 tmr for rehearsal.
gonna have to take pics again.
school is scheduled to start at 8 and end by 130 tmr.
gotta stay back to upload photos and get on with the video again after school.
hoping it can end by 230, gotta stay to discuss group's biology project.
so yea, hope to leave school by 4 tmr.
gonna have tuition later on in the evening.
tired.
mentally more than physically.
damm strained.
damm stressed.
damm pissed & easily annoyed.
hot tempered & helpless with my stupid situation.
can time stop, let me finish, catch up then continue again?
zZzZz.
dear shanyan hasnt been reachable all evening. :/
gotta press for mrheng's overdued harddisk from ppg.
gahh, overload.

failing my amath, now my emath inequalities too.
log, surds & indices are confusing me.
before i can even grasp & fully comprehend a topic, we're on to the next.
i wanna change tuition. :/
i really wanna stop failing.
time just doesnt seem enough.
even before you're done with one, another task is already given.
biology project consultation starts this coming week.
just so much.
language papers starts the following week.
kicking off the start of MYE.
die man.
seriously.
die.

library date today with marcus darren qmor n jasmin.
recapped on log basics.
gahh, so much.
darren went off.
qmor decided to go play bb so didnt tag along.
end up me jasmin marcus going to jp.
me jasmin bought sushi n yoghurt.
yummiee^^
we kinda came to a conclusion.
never bring guys along when going shopping.
they are plain IRRITATING. :O
hahah.

anyways, today marks th 1th year.
been so fast.
a year passed in just a flash.
yeah.
been so long.
now it's how i go on from here.
cheers to me(:

gonna rest now.
damm tired.
happy n nice sleep to me yeh?

toodles lovely people out there(:

2010-04-09T17:54:00.003+08:00

been hell of a day today.
first up: talk by mdmong on some VERY sensitive issues during morning assembly.
hmmm. -.-
dutied, went back to class and sat through the remaining half an hour of chemistry.
had mt lesson next.
test. think should pass?
went for pe afterwards.
should have been 2.4 run.
we kinda protested and we got to do sit n reach and practice for long jump(:
recessed.
emath-ed.
we kinda made mstan angry/upset. ><
dismissal-
went to control room with KJE.
put our bags and walked around.
slackslack-
went library to find filmingcrew.
got into some shit with some unreasonable people.
wth you.
seriously, 2 apologies.
& you owe me one.
damn you man.
i hate people who have two faces.
I DONT LIKE YOU.
shitz alright.
im so never ever gonna put up with you if you ever OVER EXPLODE UNREASONABLY AGAIN.
& i mean it.
thanks for spoiling my day man.
thanks loads to KJE for standing by me today.
sorry you guys had to put up with my load of crap and nonsense and my wailing.
loveyou ttm. <3
& thanks evon for letting me cry on your shoulder.
sorry tho ><
stayed till four.
mother and aunt came.
GO aunty come up hall find me -.-
zZzZzZz
went home with them, kejun left too.
so yea, left evon to keep.
sigh why must rehearsals always be so late?!?
RAWRR.

tired.
toddles lovely people.

2010-04-04T13:23:00.003+08:00

back./
hmmm.
eveything has been uber sucky recently.
super badbad weeks.
so many things going on.
so many things i dun wanna talk about.
so many things i think will be better if i let go.
so many things i know right from wrong but i cant help myself.
just feeling so tired.
so frustrated.
so annoyed.
my temper has been totally so out-of-range.
my emotions are so out-of-control.
my thoughts are just going wild.
yea, im mad lo.
:/
dunno what's wrong with me.
just so complicated.
sigh.
im sorry it has to end.
i just hope maybe one day you'll understand.

its tough being me./
thgirl♥

2010-02-25T17:24:00.004+08:00

sigh.
hi people.

okay, i know my tagboard has been dubbed the 'war zone.'
thanks much to someone luh.
you know, i know, we all know, only he dunno.
yepp?

anwayz, this is for you.

please luh, stop bothering us.
stop making trouble, for us, for eveyone.
if we can just let you be, we expect the same.
we're so sick & tired of all this.
cuz, you just dun seem to understand.
will you breathe, close your eyes and think through everything that has happened?
the words that everyone has said are for a reason.
its not that we're trying to kill you to make you get off our backs.
its irritating, its annoying.
& we cant be bothered anymore since you dun bother to take a step back and think through things calmly.

you go around telling everyone that he's a liar, a betrayer.
i dun understand what you're doing this for.
yes, he said that he would help you.
but this isnt the way things in life work.
not every lil thing goes the way as planned, as wanted.
so why?
i can swear right now, and with all the readers here as witnesses that he did help you.
& honestly, he hasn't let you down one bit as a friend.
he helped you, so what.
even if he didn't help, nothing is gonna change.
things aren't as simple as i want you and im gonna make you mine.
the heart doesn't work that way.
its, absurd.
& if you wanna know the truth, it was me who told him to stop.
& i'll say the same to anyone who does that kinda thing.
love isn't all about owning someone.
it isn't as simple as iloveyou, youaremine.

heartbreaks hurt.
nobody says it doesn't.
but life has to go on.
if i were to kill myself over such things, you wouldn't even see me here today.

what will you gain out of trying to break us up?
if it was that fragile, we wouldn't even be together in the first place.

just leave us alone.
respect me as i respect you.
respect the decision that i've made.
im not a toy for you to play & push around with.
im not an item, im not an object.
forgodsake, imma human, with emotions.
i live my life the way i want it & i have every right and freedom to make my own choices.
if you want to make mydear suffer, you're making me suffer too.
in the very end, its you who will suffer most.
cuz, it's not gonna affect us at all.

2010-02-24T18:20:00.002+08:00

nothing is gonna change at the end of the day.
this is reality.
face it.
& put an end to all that you've started.
if we can put it behind us, so can you.
stop making things difficult for everyone.

2010-02-20T20:32:00.002+08:00

harrlo!!
updates!

went to school in the morning for meeting.
ended @ 11+
home @ bout 12?
ate and got ready to go out.
mother called.
talked on the line for quite some time.
left @ bout 1.30 if not wrong.
bused to Jp.
met up & walked over to library.
lunched.
regional called to say reached le.
went up to find them.
regionals & simin sat in th middle of the aisle.
didnt see & overshot.
ahahah.
chatted&studied.
they went off @ bout 430 for movies.
left me & darren.
walked around.
saw eric&charmaine&friends.
sat&chatted.
left at 'bout 510.
went to Jp.
then didnt feel like shopping so went straight home. (:

20th February 2010.
took our vows(:
promised to keep it to the day the sky falls on us. (:
♥

2010-02-19T21:54:00.003+08:00

heyos.
one word to sum up the week : tired :/

Wednesday :
back to school after cny break.
had AMath.
then EMath.
drove us carzy.
or at least for sure, me.
Chem.
oh shit.
forgot to collect the wks again.
anw, lesson was..
okay? i think.
El did practice on compre.
for next monday's commons.
Bio continued with study of transportation in plants.
& gave back test paper.
CCA we all played & relaxed.
all of us had a great time & bonded really well. (:
chill first, gonna have intensive tranings soon.
so many events comin up -.-

Thursday :
EGeog had class test on all 4 forests.
& 5marks worth of a chapter we haven't learnt.
didn't make much sense to me.
Chi was as usual.
no comments bah, haha xD
EMath carried on with indices if im not wrong.
SS had class test.
i think i flunked it. :X
Bio study the plant thing again and did corrections for paper.
AMath started on new topic.
Indices, Surds, & Longarithms.
holy. :/
El went through paper and did distinction in english.
went to cabin after dismissal with darren regionals weiliang marcus.
then a whole bunch of people in there too.
all of us took turns to play pool & monopoly.
had a holy good time with everyone(:

Friday :
Physics started on kinematics.
hmm..okay luh.
she announced that we no longer needed to bring our TB le.
she was gonna start giving notes.
but idontknow if the paper she gave today is considered as notes not.
-.-
came in to class she was like scolding halfway.
then change reps. -.-
lol, as if easy being her rep.
tsktsk.
El did distinction in english again i think.
PE was javelin.
assesment next week.
Mt did WB.
haha.
dismissal.
went cabin put bags.
regional local global darren & marcus, lunched at kenny's.
returned to cabin.
took turns to play pool.
one word : FUN.

sweet lil things :
stressed up lately.
everyday so hectic.
cant control my emotions that well either.
however, thursday & today has been good.
going to cabin really helped me relax alott.
many thanks to regional darren marcus.
& special thanks to all those who taught me howtta play pool(:
enjoyed myself very much there(:
many loves everyone(:

Next Week :
commons week.
stress is on.
average of 2 tests per day up to thursday.
so much to do.
library date tomorrow(:
on the line now with darren suann haojie.
toodles people.

2010-02-12T16:21:00.002+08:00

hihi pops.

been busy lately.
had bio practical yesterday.
FUN.
haha, mischievousness got the better of us.
anyway, getting a lil better @ cubic expressions.
tho partial fractions are still killing me.
light, total internal reflection refraction still suck as ever.
waves, okay okay.
sigh.
common tests only a week away lo.
die.
sigh.

anyways, collected my dazzle tee after school today.
orange de.
think black/white might be better.
went jasmin house.
met up with darren yu xun and merilyn.
walked to west grove.
haha.
visited.
walked back home.

sigh, no mood post liaoz.
dunno what to post anyway.
so shall end here & go makan.
im totally famished.
toodles.

2010-01-28T17:30:00.002+08:00

urrgh.
i think about what to post when im in school, & when im at this page, i just don't know what to post about.
mind blank -.-

anw, been day dreaming alot in class.
some times, im staring into space, totally not there.
physics still sucks as ever.
she makes our heads spin round and round.
somehow, her lessons have been making us confused.
just don't seem to understand what she's talking about.
it's like, things arent made clear or clearer at all.
they just become more blur and dull.

4th floor, near central staicase.
i love to go out and look down at the scenery between classes & breathe in the cool air.
helps destress, just so nice.
but still prefer it at 2E's class.
much quieter & th weather there is much better.
aint that hot or cold, neither too bright.
LOL.
okay,..

monday.
schooled.
tuitioned.
tuesday.
schooled.
ate @ kenny's.
course-ed.
wednesday.
schooled.
cca-ed.
ava was yea.
good (:
sec 1s not too bad i suppose?
just gotta have more respect for seniors & tchers.
& know where to draw the line.
jem & marcus also came back.
& dissappeared soon after. -.-
thursday.
uh..which is today.
set wrong time for my alarm.
i forgot to change back.
woke up 8mins later than i should have.
just super tiredd.
my whole body's been aching for 2 days now.
get that feeling where i wanna pull all my bones out and stretch them.
haha.
fri.
no cca tmr.
YAY. :D
I ♥ AVA to th freaking max max max.
cant wait for camp which is now less than 40 days away. :D
yayness!

tests for the past few days.
Amaths- i'll rather jump down a building.
did the first qn & the rest were like, f***?
5qns, 30 marks leh.
the rest 4 qns were like only done halfway.
El- vocab test was today.
was a breeze (:
Chem- was ytd?
cant remember.
was a little challenging.
i totally skipped the drawing parts & diamond stuff when revising.
& yeah, i was dealt a great blow. -.-

having emath tomorrow.
chinese on monday.
biology on tuesday.
Camp on wed to fri. :D

brunei people came yesterday & today.
all were VERY emotional during the parting today.
they'll only be leaving singapore at 7pm tonight.
yepp.

everythings just doesn't seem to link.
haha.
L,
tht girl♥ (:

2010-01-15T22:06:00.002+08:00

finally.
had to do with a new skin.
arrgh ><
never mind.

anw, 2nd week of school has been okay la.
physics was still as boring as ever.
maths started on identities, comparing coefficients.
which none, went into my head.
hava a couple of homework to finish up over the weekend.
english had book talk.
biology was FUN.
haha, we did A LOT of labelling of cells and dot dot dot uh.

CCA was okay i guess?
wed- usual routine.
ava then choir.
so went for ava first.
had training for sec2s.
then left for choir.
had break.
went over to ava side.
ended up there till end of choir. :X
haha, din mean to.
thursday- sec1s cca out.
joining us next wed.
don't knw the strength for ava yet.
fri- same thing again.
then break, went ava.
returned bout 10mins to dismissal.
went canteen.
saw them still meetingg.
went over.
still talking bout what happened during training earlier.
talk till 710.
saw heng when about to leave school.
then talk again.
so only left nearing 730.
missed 181.
walked to 2nd bus-stop.
talk & wait for bus come.
homed with qiwei marcelle zhida.
kamal and kj preferred to walking.
so seperated lorh.
went home.
at the corridor near my door, my mothewr suddenly came out.
she was already going to go look for me.
cuz i called her at 630, near 8 still havent home.
haha.
then say say say, watched TV.
went to bath.
comped.
haven't eaten since morning.
& don't feel like doing so.
not having much of an appetite these days.
keep skip meals.
but ya, doesn't matter.

so ya.
next wed games day for intro of sec1s and a break for sec2s.
happy? :D
so no traning bah.
hmm, dunno what else to say.

gooda nights peeps.

L, the girl (:

2010-01-09T14:47:00.001+08:00

a very touching story.
i cried.
i wanna watch the movie.

CCA Fair

2010-01-08T23:08:00.004+08:00

hey guys.
it's been an eventful day.
yes, it has been.

went to school.
did ava duty.
took photo for pass, cuz i was THE only one whose photo heng didn't have.
then went for lessons.
mt was haha.
emath was okayz.
physics was a bore, i could hardly keep myself alive. :Z
my, she really gotta get a life.
no offence lorh, facts are merely nothing but facts. [:
went for recess.
quickly ate.
went to find my members for tomorrow's meeting.
search the whole campus for 2A but apparently they were MIA. --
went back to class. mrs chow was in for relief.
then another cher came.
ex-wwdian. --
give us paper tell us do.
SIAN DIAO.
totally killer pill.
Miss Mr Chou's CME Lessons!!!!!!!!
so fun one lorh last year, or should i say past two years.
but last year more fun.
okay, too long.

school ended, rush to find 2A but already dismissed.
so fine lorh, what happen then happen.
then changed, went to gallery.
stayed till almost 1.15 then run nto choir.
practiced, went to hall at 2.
damn sian one la i tell you.
i hour you sit down there in the hall stare here and there.
3pm.
guzheng started.
then choir.
anything that happened i dun wanna talk about it.
nobody will understand, aint gonna know what is really going on behind everything.
you wun know unless you are in it.
i wonder if you could do without the system for even 1 week.
nevermind, can't be bothered to contradict.
just goes down the drain when you're biased.

immediately changed after choir's performance and went for ava.
felt much better.
whenever i go for ava, my stress and worries are gone.
& i love that feeling.

sec 2s.
tsktsk.
sigh, evon, me, and kamal scolded you guys for half an hour.
& for reasons to be straightened out.
i wonder if it even went into you head.
seriously, you guys can't slack anymore.
all i want you to have is to be more hardworking and more passionate 'bout your cca.
it is, your cca.
you can't always depend on your seniors.
when we pass out, you guys are gonna be the next batch to pass down everything.
& the sec 1s are coming in soon.
you gotta set good examples for them.
be more serious okay.
& I WANT THE 12 REASONS YOU OWE US BY MONDAY, 7am, foyer.
don't you dare turn up without it.

went home at 6.30+
watched Tvee, bathed, ate.
comp-ing.
& i realised a stupid thing when i signed in to blogger. --

links will be updated soon.
sorry for the delay.
no mood to do so now.

p.s. check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNzrwh2Z2hQ
im addicted ~

2010-01-01T15:33:00.002+08:00

happy new year everyone.

a new year, time for new things and new memories yea?
(:

may the year ahead be a better one (:
& damm the rain. --

will be having orientation on monday & tuesday.
hoho.
funfun! (:
wanna buy a reward kinda thing for th sec 1s.
see how it goes (:

ttyl folks!
L, july (:

2009-12-14T12:08:00.003+08:00

back.

homework is freaking me out.
esp book reviews.
god damm book reviews.
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

half my homework is also missing.
i had them a week ago until they moved all the furniture in my room. --
now i need to dig them out of no idea where.
arrghhh.
aint nice.
stressed over homework on top of missing homework.
freakout.

nothing is getting into my head.
rawrrrrr.
sooooooo not good.

):

2009-12-06T16:27:00.002+08:00

been busy.
and will be busy.
wun be posting for some time i guess.

im gonna be soooo dead.
homework, untouched.
sacred thing haha.

drink water and take care of yourselves people.

2009-12-01T14:05:00.003+08:00

went jp just now.
saw vk zj abi jy jesmd sw cb @ interchange. :D
ate and came back.

on the comp, only startup and it died on me.
just FREAK can. --
2nd time on again.
same thing happen.
just kill me larh. >:z
freak this ______ comp.
3rd time then startup normally.
ARRGH. it just drives me nuts.

there shouldnt be any problem what.
today is only the 3rd freaking day.
3rd freaking day, mind you.
knock wall. --

scanning my laptop last night i realised there was a trojan inside.
FREAK.
downloaded pics from facebook last night to start on the SC Investiture video.
and now my comp dies on me.
just freak.

morning aunt borrowed my thumbdrive.
she scanned it and found a bloody worm in it.
IT IS DRIVING ME NUTS.
LAST THING I WANT IS FINDING MALICIOUS SOFTWARE ROAMING IN MY OPERATING SYSTEM.
ARRGH I WISH I COULD BURN THEM UP INTO ASHES.

and i realized last night that my current skin is the same as zhixuan's blog.
haha, came across his blog ytd.
and suddenly i realized the headings are the same.
his is the same as the original, mine edited.
haha, i was stunned.
now then know. {:

and now i got bitten my insects.
how worse can my day get uh.

2009-11-30T10:55:00.002+08:00

zao an ni hao people (:
(hello & good morning people)
hahas.

been busy for the past few days.
so did not manage to post.

i feel suckish today.
my whole body is aching.
arrgh, dun know how i slept.
limited movement for now.

and..yea i dunno what else to post.
so ya.

take cares over the holidays (:
drink plenty of water eat more fruits & veggie.
work out, keep fit.
always get some over-the-counter-drugs with you.
they'll come in handy (:
weather sucks so ya, TAKE CARE. :D

ttyl folks, ♥

2009-11-25T13:29:00.004+08:00

hello hello.

went for choir in the morning.
games as usual was captain's ball, but..
girls played pushball (:
and so we played, getting dirty & itchy.
vowel practices, sang, touch up on the cca fair stuff and ended.
went fico & homed.

changed skin yesterday. >*thanks (: <
yeah.
nothing much to post about.

IT fair is on at expo.
dont really know the details.

rawr.
tomorrow gotta accompany my sister go back primary school.
take psle results. --
2 yrs back when mother went with me almost faint.
so now she ask me go instead of her.

okay, so random.
as usual uhs.

2009-11-23T14:20:00.004+08:00

hello people.

did not really have a good sleep last night.
dream of a person.
& it's quite vague, so ya.
kept tossing and turning in bed so ended up with stiff shoulders as well.
finally crawled outta bed cuz i
had choir in the morning from 9-12.
i din know there was cca today.
until shreya text-ed me the day before.
so ya.
checking the schedule i realised we have choir till wednesday.
3 days straight of waking up early.
which is like not so good news to me uh.
rawrr.
i dun deny im lazy (:
holiday what, somemore only left bout 1mth to chill before starting to stress again.

choir today was alright.
left my stomach muscles feeling as if i just did sit-ups. ><>:(
RAWR.
i think my kindergarten cher came to visit.
did nothing much.

sunday.
-urhh what did i do.
oh.
pretty much slacked the whole day.
ate, ate and ate.
how in the god am i gonna lose weight.
freak --

2009-11-20T15:44:00.002+08:00

YIPPEE.

back to post.
hoho.

went to school for choir in the morning.
ended up redoing everything for cca fair.
tired ):
damm tired uhs.

had pizza with shreya after choir, again.
this time weng yee tagged along too.
lol, the crust of our pizza was burnt.
then weng yee's pizza never cut. --

then the aunty next door chased away the birds like 3 times.
pratically she ran around and it was damm funny.
1st 2nd time still okay lah.
then she ran around sort-of out-of-control and we just burst out laughing mad.
hahaz.
im so bad ><

then it started drizzling.
and woah, suddenly downpour. --
lucky i brought umbrella --
if today wet again sure sick liaoz.
then bused home with shreya (:
hahas.

ending here.
chillz people (:

2009-11-19T16:56:00.002+08:00

HAAAAALOWWWWW PEOPLE.

hmm.
updates on today.
6.18 received text from cher.
woke up @ 7.30.
bathed, dressed up and went to school.
reach school already 8.40, 8.45?
went to hall straight.
got cam from nizel.
take pictures for bout maybe 1hr.
went up control room slack and play.
haha.
slack till bout 12.
then they gave us lunch.
ate.
went to take photos again at bout 12.45.
had fun with vk.
hoho. ^^
took many pics.
joy came at bout 1.10.
hand over to her.
went control room slack again as it started to rain.
couldn't go home.
sianz.
slack till the whole thing ended @ 2.35.
first time events end early siah.
haha, cool.

went home in the rain.
washed up.
ate.
watch tv.
now posting.

gonna eat durian.
hahaz.
yeah, the smell is really super strong norh.

2009-11-18T12:44:00.003+08:00

hi people.

woke at 10.
ate ham and bread for breakfast.
cleaned up my sis's guinea pig cage.
gave her a bath as well (:

online.
went to local's blog & watched the video again.
showed my mother as well.
cried yet again.
it's just so touching.
watch over and over again.

Love. Care. Concern.
how great is it?
how much will one do for it?
how much can one do for it?
how much will one sacrifice for one he loves?
just how much can it go?

a dog.
an animal.
but it has feelings far more than most of us humans.

the video taught me many things.
made me understand.
& left a deep impact on me.

2009-11-17T11:17:00.002+08:00

okayyz.

im back to post after dunno how many days.

sunday-
went to school in the evening for sc bbq.
had much fun.
esp the prawn part :X
haha.
reached home at bout 10+.
they prank call me.
prata eh?
haha, listen jiu know le.
its eugene, hahas.
washed up, watched tv and slept.

monday-
woke at 9.
thanks to my mother hp.
ring ring ring.
she in kitchen, never hear.
ite, i woke up and took it to her. --
accompanied her go yishun.
rawr.
there was this lady on the train.
she was kind of mentally unstable.
she carried a..dunno what thing.
the one that you use to scratch your back or what de.
in the train she use that thing bai pose.
on her way out she used that thing to hit a guy.
the guy was stunned.
seriously stunned norh.
HAHA.
should have seen his shocked reaction.
okay, im so bad.
xin zai le huo. --

heard a song over the radio last night.
it was a song by akon and colby o' donis.
which was out think about 2 yrs ago.
it reminded me of 2007.
my p6 year.
esp the days when i used to go tuition with my friends.
and have loads of fun on our way home together.
going into the carpark near my home to play hide and seek, catching etc.

specially miss
-irene (ireena)
-mun (huimun)
-ah li (lay li)
-koko.

yepp.
thanks guys for all the memories (:

tuesday-
couple of things to be done i guess.

I wanna start on my holiday homeworks.
ARRGH.
i hate holiday assignments. --
if only i could burn them up.
If Only.
anybody want pei me do?
i cant survive doing it myself.

2009-11-14T14:48:00.002+08:00

okayz.

hi people.
--

today is saturday 14 November.
no link.
just random.
haha.
im bored ):

watched movies online.
watch tv.
bored now.

had choir yesterday.
we're done with stuff for CCA Fair '10.
YAY.
claps (:

my aunt went to sleep in my sister's room yesterday.
felt weird.
i like sleeping alone but been some time since i slept alone so ya.
took some time to fall asleep.
slept at 1 am woke up at near 10.30?
i think so.

anyways uncle came in th morning and he bought ice cream (:
HAHA.
im gonna pig out (:
lol, what you expect. --

time now is 3.04.
if im not wrong.
feel warm --

gonna go eat my ice cream le (:

tatas (:

2009-11-12T13:46:00.001+08:00

okay.

1. hate the weather.

2. you are a real freak man.
worse than i ever imagined.

3. im bored.

4. anyone wanna catch 2012, paranormal activity?

2009-11-11T10:28:00.003+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

okay, my blog song is getting stuck.
i dk why.

im in a good mood today.
super good.
wore shorts and slept.
my blanket was like some where else on the bed.
during the nite, my body froze.
gahh, so cold. --
suddenly woke up, 7am.
replied a text. HAHA.
went back to sleep (:
the more i slept the more tired i got.
woke up at around 930.
rolled around in bed, hahas (:
ate breakfast,now posting.

going to choir at 3 later.
good, not good, i have no idea. --
didnt go last week, so ya.
explaination to do?

2009-11-10T14:53:00.013+08:00

hiie peeps.

im in a much much better mood today ya.
changed my blog song :D
going high.
high high high, i dk why.

other day was alcohol, now choco. (:
but still in moderation (:
kinda come to terms with my posting.
well,what to do.

aint really the end of the world?
just gotta work hard?

ya,i love myself (:
i aint gonna die yet (:

many thanks to lena.
really touched by what you said yesterday.
appreciate it lots ya :D

2009-11-09T13:55:00.003+08:00

okay.

went to school.
took streaming results.
its raining now..
din get the option i wanted.
gotta appeal.
just feel suckish right now.
can anyone cheer me up?
please?
rain stopped -.-

completed our video for SDMA.
done editing and final touch ups.
its cool (:
we did have fun.
5 of us (:
our class (:

kinda mood less now.
wanna be void of feeling.
dun wanna think.
just wanna lie back, fall and disappear from earth.
sounds nice.
free from everything.
to just let go.
a simple yet difficult thing.

wanna quit choir/SC.
or maybe both?
really wanna concentrate on my studies.
i dun wanna to come to a dead end where i'll be left with no choice.
if i had just worked hard from beginning of the year, today would have been different.
might not even have the need to appeal.
or be in such a dire state.
kinda regret not putting in my best.
well what to do.
reap what you sow.
just gotta wish for the best now.

it's wrong but, ..

2009-11-07T19:42:00.012+08:00

ihateyou.
ireallydo.

okay.
went out.
came back with a not so good mood.
dont know what to post.
have much to say but no idea where to start.
just totally pissed.
headache.

death is scary.
it is.
but sometimes, when things hurt too much.
death becomes an escape option to be free from hurt.

2009-11-06T09:05:00.003+08:00

okay.
back to post.

1, thanks local.
for everything, really thanks.
i know you had to put up with alot of my nonsense over the past few days.
love you many girl (:

2, i like my blog song. (:
addicted with very minute. (:

3, everytime i see the nameless tag, it freaks me out. --
feel as if being stalked.
gahhhhh, its scary.

4, kinda lost control yesterday.
im sorry ):

5, have ava later at 11 (:
postponed but didnt get to sleep much longer anw.
smses, calls --
so sleepy siah.
gonna bath in a while, eat breakfast and out by 1020 (:
it better not rain.
rain = emotions gone wild.

2009-11-03T16:35:00.003+08:00

okay.
hi people.
okay, lame.

1. MY word of the day is
Cream & Bubbles (:
2. I dreamt of monsters last night.
it was just weird, dont like it.
gahh.
3. I can't wait for tomorrow (:
(cream cream and loads of cream)

actually wanted to post something.
and halfway through comp dc.
freak.
so yea, another time perhaps? (:

2009-11-02T11:30:00.002+08:00

okay.
yesterday.
kinda nothing much in the day.
drank at night.
face red like tomato.
ate chocolate chips and went high.
texted in bed till 3 in the morning. (:
hmm woke up at 10 today?
on comp.
talked to a ~~lunatic.~~

facebooked.
texted.

gahh.
have to go to local's house on wednesday to collect my freaking homework.
have ava from 9-12, might stretch though.
gotta be back in school by 3.30 (:
should i go to her place before cca or after cca?
gahh, i have no idea.
still tryna work out the timing.
going to jp later i guess.

sigh, jiayous.

2009-10-29T18:20:00.000+08:00

today just sucked.
told myself not to do silly things.

2009-10-27T15:55:00.000+08:00

mood swing.
feel so alone, lost and lonely.
dontknow why.

feel so sad.
last day in school.
wont get to spend my last days with 2Espirit.
its like, (idontknow) but i dun like what im feeling.
it sucks ):

submitted subject options today.
felt kinda weird.
it's like so fast.
so many things have happened..
can't imagine what it's gonna be like next year.
new friends, new classmates, things are sure to change.
it's a creepy thing.

one's presence or rather the impact of someone or something is felt greatest only when it's gone, no matter how much you treasure or appreciate them.

conclusion : it's a plain sucky feeling '-'

2009-10-26T17:03:00.003+08:00

no matter what, i still want you to look me in the eye and tell me (:

okay, school was like no comments?
just kept watching the clock for dismissal time :D
my, it's my last day in school tomorrow.
won't get to see you, you, you, and everyone anymore ):
going to juyingsec on wed and thur.
for p6 secondary school experience.
didn't have that in my time?
did go to juying then but not as many sec schools combined??
i think. --

hmm...dunno what else to say.
OHOH!!!!!!!!
i know!
HAHA, guess what.
going to malaysia for sec3 adventure camp next year :D :D
though JB only?
okay, fine anything.
OUT OF SINGAPORE. wow
not like i despo or what lah.
but i think it's gonna be freak loads of fun.
HAHA, big grin.

smilesmile, you can do it (:

2009-10-24T12:08:00.001+08:00

in loving memory, r.i.p

i'll miss you.

2009-10-22T17:52:00.002+08:00

okayy the moody one is back.
didnt get enough sleep last night resulting in my craziness and change in behaviour before and after recess.

came back from school, bathed.
lie on sofa and slept with super wet hair.
damm tired la.

just found out today that 2 of my members quit.
im so gonna nag at you when i see you.
BEWARE. ROAR.

ate and now blogging (:

hmm..everyone is freaking out over subject combinations??
well people chill, you'll reap what you sow.
haha primary school motto or something like that.

now i have a headache. ):
im like sooo random.
lessons today were fun and funny.
yesterday's as well.
my, i have to go back to school tomorrow D:
AND THE DAY AFTER AS WELL! D: D: D:
im already tired just by thinking bout it.
how can like that. --

art was fun, we watched army daze again.
but most of us still laughed.
it's just so funny.

dunno what else to say.
haha.
toodles, random aung. (:

2009-10-19T21:53:00.001+08:00

one word, sick.
btw, sorry i hung up on you.

2009-10-18T12:45:00.002+08:00

freak.
blogger has a problem and can't upload pictures at the moment.
ya.

today is 18 Oct 2009. (Sunday)
okay, so lame.
been exactly 6 months.
i have no idea what i wanna post.

* try to smile, don't be so depressed okay (:
jiayous for practical (:

2009-10-17T10:32:00.002+08:00

vk's mom passed away.
2espirit people or anyone reading this who knows her please send her a text or just give her a call.
she needs our support right now.
love you babe, take care ya?

2009-10-16T11:52:00.000+08:00

going out for badminton soon.
yippee (:
tata.

2009-10-15T14:02:00.003+08:00

school-ed.
oral-ed.
gym-ed.
ate.
home.
blogging.

went by and dropped the letter.
i guess now it's really done.
full stop.the end.no more.
dont wanna elaborate much here.

my mind is set.
now i know, and im gonna face reality.
been such a fool.
well, it was the path i chose.
i knew the ending and still chose this road.
so ya, sad thing but no regrets i guess?

just gonna end here.
gonna take a bath and brainwash myself (:

2009-10-09T18:09:00.003+08:00

im sooooo freaking bored.
had physics today.
so damn unbelievable.

sianz.
school
home
jp
home
blog

im thinking if i shouldn't go.
anyway, anyone wanna go with me to the movies next week?
somebody please ask me out.
i'll die from boredom.
ARRGHH!!!

i dunno what i wanna post, it's so random.
the randomness' takin over me again.
'-'

2009-10-07T13:04:00.007+08:00

im back.

had english yesterday, maths today.

its also the start of psle today.
one word, sian.
maths 1st page already die.

the rest was okayy la.
and i missed one qn and did it in the last 5 mins.

like mad.
freak i want get A maths ok!
having geog paper tomorrow.

after school local accompany me go find someone's house.

tikam tikam find.
i dunno i find where la, i find like siao can.
and still no idea where.
reason being, i want to visit you next friday.

we went to her ahem's hse, she wanted to leave a letter

and we visited qiyin too.

she was bathing '-'

ahaha, her mom came to the door.

we didn't stay so left and made our way back.

i walked and i did not walk in the direction of my blocks.

so stupid.

i was walking in the wrong direction.

and so we decided not to walk back.

and walked towards the bus stop.

waited ages for 99.

it's like one stop only lor.

haha.

she bused back to my primary school there and will transfer bus i think.

and now im home(:

changed my blog song.

i still like the previous one more though.

im counting down to when i'll be seeing you again

cuz we made a pact.

we promised we'll not break it.

& so i'll be waiting

for the celebration i'll not forget (:

2009-09-30T09:13:00.004+08:00

in the comp lab now.
having music.
i sooooooo love my blog song.
im addicted.
haha.
anyways, past few days was alright.
later gonna give out mooncakes for all recesses.
ITS GONNA BE SO SHIOK!!
my, im so excited.
yeah.
Graduation Ceremony is two days away.
gonna be busy that day.
hope everything turns out well.
no, it's got to turn out well.

my baby is sick.
as in my guinea pig.
i cried looking at her yesterday.
must get well soon k?
i want to see you in the best of health.
iloveyou(:

2009-09-27T13:47:00.003+08:00

hmm.
im stupid. i was and still am.

so ya, thats one thing i do know for sure.

anyway, im tryna kinda like copy something?

tryna be somewhat like that 3 monkeys??

i will not go and see what i don't need to.

not go and listen stuff that i shouldn't.

& not talk bout things that ain't necessary.

yupp, im gonna try to find a happier me.

just wondering if i should close my blog for the time being.

....maybe i won't.

im gonna start trying to concentrate on my studies.

EOY is creeping up on me.

i wanna get into the subjects of my choice.

though, i still can't decide.

i god damm freaking want biology but i also don't wanna snap under all that pressure as well.

so yeah,gonna have to control myself even if i cant for the next 18~ days.

haha, i do have affinity with some numbers.

so yeah, cheers to a better me (:

2009-09-25T16:18:00.009+08:00

it's been a bad day today.
bad bad day.
i don't like today.
i had no mood to eat during recess.
i left the canteen and went to the gallery.
they were having hari raya rehearsals.
going up already starting to tear.
sat and just broke down.
my eyes hurt from all that crying.
cried for all the reasons.
feeling not so good these few days.
just couldn't take it anymore.
then the classes started coming in.
went back to class to get my bag.
went to hall.
i tried hard not to cry.
after school, my head also started hurting.
accompanied xueli and sherice in the library.
then still have the 'missing' camera problem.
im just so pissed.
so upset over every little thing.
hai.
i just need a listening ear.
''the past is history ; the future is mystery ; the present is gift''
"thats why the present is present"
immissingyoumorethanever.
imappreciatingyoumorethanever.
all the memories are just so hard to forget.
everything seemed just yesterday.
every corner in the school where we used to laugh and smile together.
just when im halfway there, im back to day 1.
now the cycle is repeating again.
and it hurts more than ever.
what to do?

2009-09-24T18:05:00.007+08:00

don't know whats got into me.

seriously,,

i get dreams of you, again.

this whole thing is repeating yet another cycle.

i really don't know what to do.

got this feeling of loneliness creeping up on me recently.
it just comes over me suddenly and gives me mood swings.
i get ~~emo~~ even over the littlest things and just feel like crying.

hate it.

had languages paper 1 today,okay la.

no mood anyway.

my mind was totally occupied with something else.

so didn't put in much effort.
lucky paper not very difficult.

2009-09-23T18:21:00.004+08:00

day was okayy.

did commanding for the first time today.

before i did it, i forgot the pledge.

then okay le,went up.

everything okayy i guess, except i skipped "please put aside your reading materials" that part.

everyone stun look at me.

so embarrassed :S

said announcement afterwards and went back to class.

we watched advertisements for music.

most of us laughed our heads off.

the ads are really exaggerated and soooooooo funny.

and since literature class i tried to make the hari raya decoration.

i didn't know how to but curious then go try.

after 2hrs, i still wasn't done.

haha.

after school, went to fico for lunch.

camwhored with xueli.

i wanted pizza but many people so we had chicken chop or what from the other shop.

craziness took over us.

went back to school for geog.

was okayy, we watched videos (:

went bubble tea shop, and went to fico again.

just because i wanted to bet with her whether nelson was still there.

hahas..

she made me carry all her stuff and look dumb.

and so ya,nelson wasn't there.

so i had to continue carrying her stuff.

LOLs..

and we bused home afterwards (:

2009-09-21T12:09:00.003+08:00

hmm..

exams are coming :O

so ya,time to mug hard (:

the seriousness of STREAMING is just starting to get to me.

anyway will have couple of test now and then before the actual thing.

time passes by so fast. :

everything seemed just yesterday.

still, who knows what the future brings.

i gotta stop thinking wild thoughts and start concentrating on my studies.

gonna be MIAing for the time being.

all the best to everyone (:

2009-09-07T12:46:00.002+08:00

-haix.

went to send my handphone for servicing on friday night.
already over warranty.noob.
they told me monday tuesday will get back then until yesterday never call.
so after tuition yesterday, went jurong point with sis to meet mom and aunt to watch G-Force.
so cute can.enjoyed the movie la.
then went down to check out my phone.
it was already done can.
just that they never make the call.
to repair - $265 bucks cuz' both cable and LCD faulty.
can you believe it.
i felt as if a bomb had been dropped on me.
i might as well buy a new phone right.
so ya, thats what i did.
i went to singtel i think.i wasn't even in the mood liao.
yeah.array display of phones.
i had to top up $100 bucks on top of the phone i chose cuz' i still had another 6 months till my contract expired.
freak.
so ya,see here see there.
talk here talk there.
i was so overwhelmed i wanted to cry can.
then went to another shop along th aisle that also sold mobile products.
eventually bought a motorola phone.
practically basic one lor.
i was sooooo depressed yesterday la.
went up to sakura eat.
yummy la.
now i have to put up with this phone till next march.
6+ freaking months.
ya,nightmare.
dunno how im gonna survive.
if one small phone can cause me so much i'll probably die if MY world collaspes.
whatever,exageration huh.
you won't know.

so ya,i manage to save most of my contacts cuz' i saved them in my sim.
lucky?..i think i might have lost some though i don't know whose and which.
so yeah thats all for now.
im hungry.
and ya,the songs are back.
YAY.
shall end here.
I HAVE NO FRIGGIN MOOD TO DO MY HOMEWORK OR GO BACK TO SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK.

P.S my handphone number is still the same.

2009-09-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

oh mann.
I HATE BLOGGER.
what's wif the posting sia.
freak.

went back to BLGPS ytd.HAHAS
went with mun,peiling,ah wen,shuhui and dunno who.
cannot go in before 1.30 so went to boon lay shopping centre to eat first.
not long after we left the food court,we met wanjing brenda yunmei yong ting yushan koko jiaxin wen qiao ivan and 2 or 3 people whose names i cant rmb. and so we slacked and joked around.
FUN!! after 2 years, we are still the same with all the nicknames and bickering and laughter as usual.
after bout 30min we went to sch..still not allowed in cus nt time yet :|
it rained while we were there too.
then finally...we got in.
haha
were only allowed in th canteen so ya.
talked to my p6 Chinese teacher,thanked her for her patience and help then.
met a lot of friends.was nice to reminisce.
we were told to leave in a short while.
went to the playground.
got teased by irene and layli. yeah fun eh?
haha.it started raining so went under the blocks and slowly made our way to the bus stop.
layli succeeded in making us hold hands.
didnt know how it happened but ya,ended up holding hands.
irene pei me wait for bus.she said she was worried bout leaving me behind with 4 guys.
haha thanks babe.
ohya! then they made fun of wen qiao too.
haha funny sia,he first time had nothing to say back.
then my bus come they make fun of koko again.
eventually i left lah.what you expect?
freaking tired lor yesterday.
too sad cannt post pics.

hope to go out with them again during hol next week.
CAN U BELIEVE IT! HOLIDAYS ARE NEXT WEEK.
pray no need go back to school though.

i love the way how i can always be stupid and foolish in front of you without caring a hoot.
maybe its time for a new beginning(:

2009-08-20T18:36:00.000+08:00

uh.why does blogger look so...weird?
wanted to upload pics.
I FINALLY FOUND MY CABLE.
my mom had kept it by mistake thinking it was hers.
so ya.
next time perhaps.

many things hav happened.
some things shall keep mum.
Common test were okay.
math-ok
geog-alomost no time.bt managed to finish.easy but no time oni haha.
chem-20/25
el-okayy?
phy-damm easy.but alr 1 wrong hahas.

so ya.chi is on mon.
lit is tink week after.
vocab test next mon or tue or what,dk?..

2009-08-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

had NDC today.
emceeing was so so la.
2 chers tot i was on MC.
LOL.
went to join ava aft everything.
down thr siao siao.
took photo for awhile then went back class.
SUPER HIGH in class.
SUPERLY INTENSE ELECTRIFYING ENERGY.
whoo!had a lotta un deco-ing n highing and singing.
we were crazy.
then amalina th awesome down thr running ard wif national flag.
we siao until attract too much attention.HAHA.Laugh!
then dorea came by few times.
ite, went wif her to take photos(:
shiok one lor.
went to every class,took all th decos.
some were realli cute(:
took class photos for graduating classes.
NICE, see i so good?!?
aha,fun one lor seniors.
HAHA.
had a great time.
realli love ava.
everything on my head just disappears when im wif them ava-ing.
haha.i dunno how to put it.
i also tried to psycho 1E to vote for us.
thing is,i went to their class to take photos.
then i heard my FD song.
i immediately went in n asked what class.
aft knowing is 2E/F one i sat at th front of th class to watch.
hahas.took pics n tried to psycho them lor.
wnet by all th classes so many things happened.
was a realli nice day.
the classes coming tgt.
a realli nice bonding session between everyone.
went back to class b4 dismissal.
sian lor then make mr chou play music for us.
suddenly announcement came.
dismissed.
then ... ...
come home lor.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY.

2009-08-04T17:27:00.006+08:00

Mon- hah,no chi spelling.
the day was okay i guess?
acc xueli + salina go home aft sch.
outside back gate diedie cannt get taxi.
ite called citycab haha.
then run go front gate w8 for cab.
haha had lunch at th market near their house.
FULL FULL mann.
cant even move.HAH
then go down,xueli kip say run run.
we tell her run herself cus we cld hardly move.
HAHAHAHASS.lame~
cabbed back to sch again.haha
didnt drop by gek poh.
then reached sch cannt reach qy on her hp.
sherice smart go call th hse.
then say she nvr bring hp go.lols
haha,saw them later.
we had to wear our FOC stockings ytd.
th mam bought it.no notice :|
everyone wore it anw.
so ya had FD.
funfun!!
Bestdancers were great!bravo!
took class photos afterward.
nice mann.
Tue-i cld hardly wake up this morning.
i jus wanted to curl up in bed.
anw went to sch.
as usual lor.
had MT common test.
ok la?
its either pass by few marks or vice versa.
of cus i hope its th former.
after sch went gallery.
best place to destress mann!
my,i love the control room.
aft sooooooo long,my hands were finally on th mixer.
haha.love it!
they did NAFA retest.
so i nth to do play music!hahas
i tink it was leonard's CD??
nameless correct liao.idk.
went hme.
that qy ah,siao one.
that yx also.--
hahah,i also.
when i dropped th bus,thr was tis gal.
who is somebody's ex kept stare at me.
sec 1 leh,stare stare??
like nvr see senior b4 like that.--
LOL.

posting now.
stupid migrain.
it's getting to me again.
super tired lately.
gonna have NDC rehearsal tmr again.
half U?so i tink nid court shoes??
sooooo tired lah.
jus wanna sleep all day.
sigh.

p.s. babe,cheer okay? we love you.
SMILE(:

NINJA video OUT!!!! spot mii if you can!haha!

HALO~

Remember those walls i built
Well baby they are turning down
And they didn`t even put up a fight
They didn`t even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But i never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It`s like i`ve been awaken
Every rule i had to break
It`s the risk that i`m taking
I ain`t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere i`m looking now
I`m surrounded by your embrace
Baby i can see your halo
You know you`re my saving grace
You`re everything i need and more
It`s written all over your face
Baby i can feel your halo
Pray won`t fade away

I can do your halo
I can see your halo
I can be your halo
I can see your halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkness night
You`re the only one that i want
You got addicted to your lie
I swore i`d never fall again
But this don`t even feel like falling
Gravity came again
To pull me back to the ground again

It`s like i`ve been awaken
Every rule i had to break
It`s the risk that i`m taking
I`m never gonna shut you out

Everywhere i`m looking now
I`m surrounded by your embrace
Baby i can see your halo
You know you`re my saving grace
You`re everything i need and more
It`s written all over your face
Baby i can feel your halo
Pray won`t fade away

I can do your halo
I can see your halo
I can be your halo
I can see your halo.

2009-08-01T10:48:00.001+08:00

oh mann.
i accidently went to another pg without saving my post.
damn,i cant find it in the drafts either so ya.
STUPID me.
shall cut short now.
have ndp ltr,as usual.
its alr the preview ppl!!
GET UR FLAGS OUT if u havent done so!
soo fun one lor.yepyep.
bathing n eating in a while.
hai..
mon-chi spelling.3 chp leh.):
mon/tue- vocab test.haiyo.
afternoon still nid go back for reflim of FD leh --
tue- Chi commons/class test.as usual 3 chp again.
arrghhh!!!!!..
and i still gotta practice my toning for th script.
darn.so busy):
hai~
tmr still got tuition.i wan cry liao la.
ohya my goal for now- to use lesser swearing words cus i got one xtra thing on my uniform now.

TENTATIVE TIMETABLE FOR NEXT FRI(ndp celebrations)
7am- classes to gather in class for silent reading.
7.20- event starts.(quadrangle).
7.50- class rep collect national day tokens.
8- all pupils to remain in class for ND activities.
9.30- all pupils to remain in class for Cultural Expressions.
11- dimissal.

toddles for now.

2009-07-28T18:14:00.001+08:00

i so totally hate school today.
morning reach school,dutied.
was okay,had fun crazying
15 latecomers so ya.--
suddenly mam talk bout skirt length,stun
urhh??..blur
ya hor,what did mr samuel say tis morning?
missed it.nvm.
went back to class.
maths- revision on chp 6.
had phy test ltr,okay la.
dun tink will fail??
had geog,as usual totally fun one lor
up and awake,laughing my head off at the back.
dunno wats wrong wif mii todae --
MT- tried nt to slp.
really tired lors.
recess.dutied again.ate.went back for el few min late.
forgot what happen.
ohoh!!!! the 'GOT' problem.
haha.
then had uh...maths!
debating again.quarreled.
conflicts.high tensions.cried.
FUCK lor.IHATEYOU.
students come first or th reputation i wonder.
DAMNYOU.
went for chem!
FUNFUN! collected my crystals.
big big blue blue one,so cute.
hah.like chem lessons(:
dismissal,..
SIWEI volunteered to replace mii.
THANKS so much.owe you one(:
realli thanks,..
anw,went home wif qiyin.
seperated paths halfway again.haha
weather seems to be getting hotter n warmer by the day.
freak lor. --
have AVA again tmr.like finally,YAY!(:
have NDP rehearsals tmr n fri,
and..i have nt gotten my script yet. --
so ya,gettin tmr i tink.
lookin forward to NDP'09,
th fever is gettin up n high..
yeah.
shall end for now.backache liao.
toodles(:

all i need now is a shoulder to cry on and a big long hug.

2009-07-23T14:44:00.003+08:00

lols.
been sooo lazy to update.
many things have happened.
got this momo ren still angry cus i help momo ren do st.
I DIN NOE CAN!
is he wan like that wa,u angry wif mii i cant do anythng mah.--
hmph.
i dunno what to sae le.nvm.
got NDP NE3 ltr today.
miss th fun
i haven get my costume--
arrgh.nvm.gettin ltr
hahas.
th thought of carryin tat 1.5L bottle again.scary.
nvm.wonder end what time..
anw,i forgot most of th steps alr.
gotta buck up ltr.
i hav like no idea whats gonna happen ltr?--
ohya.still gotta pass my 2.4 by JULY!
sob.1st time fail nah.damm.

~amazed by how much you like mii.(:

2009-07-17T09:53:00.002+08:00

since coming back frm camp,
been pretty sensitive..
issit jus me or what?
dun understand at times.
why do you always have to nag?
im trying tho not my best but im still trying right
why do you always have something to say?
have you ever spared a thought for me?
all you know is say say say nag nag nag.
you think i dun wanna pass my exams issit?
you think this is what i want?
sometimes i feel like transfering school
i should never have listened to you adults when i chose my sec sch.
its a grave mistake i sld never have done.
im sick and ur still naging.why cant you jus let it rest?
you know how much it annoys me not?
i rather be away at camp cus at least im free and happy there.
whats the use when a home is only a shelter to me?

hit upon a realisation that i had never wanted to believe.
Friends.
it shows ya know,even through the littlest and smallest actions.
i loved, i cared but..
all comes down to me choosing the wrong friends from the start.
it was never supposed to be.
you'll never know how it feels like to be hurt,
by your friends,by your family.
you'll never know how it feels like to feel so lost alone and helpless.
you'll never know how it feels like to know that you have no one by you.

Friends..
yea, i once had them.
once,i tasted the sweetness of it.
the warmth care concern and love.
i know that some of you care and thanks.
maybe one day everything will just work out the way its supposed to be.
i miss BLGPS.my real friends.

when i was havin high fever the other day,i had a dream
really weird one.
i dunno where i was but i felt very free.
its like there were no boundaries or limits.
i could sense a small feeling of happiness deep within me.
everywhere i looked it was white.
the place was so blissful i no longer felt 'connected' to earth?
i had wanted to stay in the place forever.
until dunno who woke me up.

is there a place for love and care in this cruel harsh and cold reality?
i wish i could escape.

2009-06-30T12:55:00.005+08:00

hmph.

im doing phy hbl hw now
it's so god damn long
8 pages to be exact.
if this is nt enuf, chi is 11 pages long.
-died :X
HBL is soooo not fun.
piles of homework on chps that havent touch on yet):
& thing is u gotta print almost all out.
Freaked-
so ya,it's nth but nuts mann.
'-'

going out tmr to celebrate.
hmm..celebrate?
i dunno what they gonna celebrate haha.
like seriously, i dunno what they'r up to.
they as in qiyin weiliang sherice xueli kejun lishan
goin gek poh tmr 4 badminton wif them n shun bian do hw
haha.so gonna chiong hws todae..
happy happy.
looking forward to tmr(:

tat all for now(:
ohya.iloveyouguys.

2009-06-29T12:42:00.006+08:00

hmm..found this on the net.
so decided to post it up since it's quite accurate. '-'

JULY peeps:

Fun to be with
Secretive
Difficult to fathom and to be understood
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Takes pride in oneself
Has reputation
Easily consoled
Honest
Concerned about people's feelings
Tactful
Friendly
Approachable
Very emotional
Temperamental and unpredictable
Moody and easily hurt
Witty and sarky
Sentimental
Not revengeful
Forgiving but never forgets
Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
Guides others physically and mentally
Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
Wary and sharp
Judge people through observations
Hardworking

H1N1 is in.One of our teachers tio..
so sad.school closed for 1 xtra week.
hope teacher gets better.'-'
& no more new cases.
HBL can just drive u nuts mann..
so ya.thats bout it.
gotta catch back some sleep ltr i guess.

p.s links have been updated
taqs have been replied
quizes...i'll see 'bout that(:

2009-06-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

Some of us are sad now..(refer to class blog)
we gotta stay strong together okay..
Cherish and appreciate the people around you cus u'll never know what life has in stored for us.it is always unpredictable,let people know that you care before it's too late.
To lipin,stay strong okay?..we'll miss your laughter and jokes in class.
You never failed to brighten our day no matter how boring class was.
Stay strong ya,you gotta carry on smiling for your mom k?
We'll always be here for you no matter what.
We love you TeoLipin<<3

2009-05-25T18:58:00.005+08:00

its been 1 mth and 8 days..
that deafening silence between us..
when i said there was nth to smile for,u told mii before that there is sure still something,that there is still a reason that i can smile for no matter what..now when ur down and out,it upsets mii cus i cant cheer you up.you never failed to put a smile on my face everyday,every single time i was down.imyb
im sorry.
i dunno what to do,this position we're in..
some things are hard to face,hard to say..
what to do when we're both running away?..
how to when we're both trying to escape from all this?..
how can i not worry when i see u so ragged?..
take care of urself cus it's hurting mii to see u like this.
best of luck for upcoming events..
i believe in you..
do your best,you can you must and you will ya?

2009-05-21T15:02:00.000+08:00

Two 'o clock and I wish that I was sleeping
You're in my head like a song on the radio
All I know is that I got to get next to you
Yeah I got to get next to you
Sitting here turning minutes into hours
To find the nerve just to call you on the telephone
You don't know that I got to get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

I asked around and I heard that you were talking
Told my girl that you thought I was out of your league
What a fool, I got to get next to you, whoa
Yeah it's five in the morning and I can't go to sleep
'Cause I wish, yeah I wish that you knew what you mean to me
Baby let's get together and end this mystery, oh

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?
How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?
Yeah, yeah, to want to get next to you

[Chorus]
Maybe were friends
Maybe were more
Maybe it's just my imagination
But I see you stare just a little too long
And it makes me start to wonder
So baby call me crazy
But I think you feel it too
Baby call me crazy
But I know you feel it too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just got to get next to you
Yeah, yeah, yeah
I got to get next to you

2009-05-19T16:26:00.001+08:00

Drip drop, Drip drop...

Now only heaven knows
How I really feel inside
I try my best not to let it show
But late at night, In my room
I think of you and start to cry

You know that I'm emotional
But still you break my heart
Let's make no mistakes

We both know that
You're the one responsible
For hurting me this way
Now my tears fall like rain

Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? Don't know what to do
Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you - Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? Don't know what to do
Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you

It's a quater after twelve
I know I should be in bed
Boy you got me feeling sorry for myself
I must confess, this loneliness is killing me
I'm so upset

How could you break all your promises
Like you told me, You'd be there to hold me
I can not believe the way I fell for it
I was a fool to buy all the lies you sold me

Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? Don't know what to do
Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you - Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? Don't know what to do
Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you

Maybe we were never meant to be
I'm sorry that it took so long for me
To see what's happening
You come around and then it rains again

Drip drop...

When will they stop

Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? Don't know what to do
Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you - Drip drop
When will my tear drops stop
Falling for you? Don't know what to do
Tick tock
Steady as a clock, Drip drop
I'm hoping someday soon
I'll be over you

It's raining, It's pouring
I try hard ignoring these tears
I try so hard, Ignoring the tears
It's raining, It's pouring
I try hard ignoring these tears

wired up

2009-05-18T11:55:00.008+08:00

been thinking alot these days,been real short tempered lately and ya i apologise for losing control easily..sigh..guess it's bout time (overdue alr) that i sort out my thoughts, as in really set my thinking straight..i know i haven't really been working even one-third of what i've been doing in primary school..not really putting in much effort in my work,just somehow holding on to that lifeline i guess.somehow,psle grades and parents' pressure really dealt me a big blow then..i never face up to reality..in my life so far,there have been 3 teachers who have told me that i've got the potential,and that as long as i work hard enough,i can do it.2 of them have told me not to find unnecessary pressure and lose my goal.never really took their advice,had always thought that i could handle it,that i would be strong enough to face including matters of the heart on top of school stress.now i know i was wrong.never really adapted well to secondary school life and now im lost.no aim,no goal,no dream.everything that i had wanted,everything that i thought i could reach just seems so far away now.regret coming to westwood,i regret not standing up for the school which i wanted to go to.i was forced and i regret giving in then cus i know now that this was never what i wanted.never thought that that decision would become such a plight.i hardly touch my books now,much less revise the weaker subjects.im dropping in my grades but somehow,i ain't really scared.had given up.met failure even when i give all out.im tired of giving my best and for nothing.im tired of doing things and hoping for the best when hardly nothing works out the way i want it.after all those problems which i never wanted to be part of,enduring all that pain,hurt and dilemma on top of stress,i've had more than enough.just feel like letting go of everything.you were my motivation,my hope,my everything

SUGAR :D :D

2009-05-13T18:00:00.002+08:00

FEAT Wynter Gordon

(Wynter)
Da double dee double di (x7)
My lips like sugar (x2)
This candy got you sprung (x2)
So call me your sugar (x2)
You love you some (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x3)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di
Sugar

(Flo Rida)
Hey, I’ve got a mouth full of cavities.
Sweet tooth, full of mama, like sugar to me.
So my love with the lips, put a bug in the ear tone.
Shawty gotta kiss, it’s an emergency.
Spit sprung for the taste, addicted to her gloss.
Won’t smile this way, baby I rub it off.
Put my tongue in your face
A little mistletoe, sippin’ grand marnier
I’m a fan all day.
Do me that favor, cuz I like your flavor.
My manage behavior; I’m into your major.
Sweeter so flavor, that’s good for this player.
My hood, now and later, throw back like a pager.
Pretty much, you’re givin’ me a sugar rush.
Lil mama, give me high blood pressure when you blush.
Lips feel soft as a feather when we touch, Shawty that’s what’s up.

(Wynter)
My lips like sugar (x2)
This candy got you sprung (x2)
So call me your sugar (x2)
You love you some (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x3)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di
Sugar

(Flo Rida)
Hey, Sh Shawty would you mind, cuz I want me some.
Now and later, I don’t wanna have to wait, you the one.
Yep! Yep! Your vision. So, so delicious.
Can’t help my interest, candy addiction.
Wanna peace, to a piece gotta get a piece.
I don’t know a piece, Give me all your sweets.
Bottom and top lip, bout to have a sugar feast.
Level with our trip, I’m a lip bitin’ beast.
Man for them things, all 42 teeth.
Squeeze the sugar cane on your mouth, must beat.
Ain’t your mama slirp, stickin’, usin’ my tree.
Like taffy but classy, get at me.
I’m flyly Let you know I wanna kiss.
But your lips, they’ll do me fine.
Now baby don’t trip with the juicy kind.
Get, get on the grip, Girl you ain’t lyin’.

(Wynter)
My lips like sugar (x2)
This candy got you sprung (x2)
So call me your sugar (x2)
You love you some (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x7)
Sugar

(Flo Rida)
You like my sugar, my sugar.
You so sweet, so sweet.
Like my candy, my candy
You so sweet, so sweet.
I got a good appetite with you on me, on me.
I’ll wrap you out of them clothes.
You my treat, my treat.
Girl you my sugar, I call you Candy
And tonight I’m gonna get me some, get me some.
Girl you my sugar, I call you Candy
And tonight I’m gonna get me some, get me some sugar.

(Wynter)
My lips like sugar (x2)
This candy got you sprung (x2)
So call me your sugar (x2)
You love you some (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x3)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di (x2)
I’m sweet like
Da double dee double di
Sugar

if only, ...

2009-05-12T16:31:00.001+08:00

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last

And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love cannot be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I’ll never leave your side
But I know someday
I’ll be gone, and you’ll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain…

Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

her life

2009-05-06T19:55:00.008+08:00

i'll let the cold rain drown away my tears.
yea..weather's been bad lately.
school seems boring these days.. temperature taking routine,feeling real tired lately and sleepy in class cus the rain keeps mii up at night )= arghh.. imissyou

been a little down since last night?..sorry dumbell )= jiayous for sci tmr k?..doing photoshop,stuck wif 1 frame n 2 more to go..drives mii nuts mann..nvm..my eating lunch+dinner thing is getting to my mom..seriously lol..no appetite anyways..why bother?..but i've been really addicted to dark chocolate lately..
that bitter sweet taste somehow matches what im feeling inside...jus wanna sae..everyone out there,take cares okay,drink plenty of water aites?dun fall sick cus i care (=

my handphone is on 24/7, call mii up wheneva ya nid a fren, i'll be more than willing to hear your voice even if it's 3 in the morning.

err..o.o ?

2009-04-24T14:06:00.003+08:00

hmm..my template has changed suddenly again? wierd, sum columns are missing..

but ahah..i cant be bothered..okayy..btw thanks xueli'z sherbel for helping mii do up my blogskin..updates on the crazy things things i've been doing for the past..errr 10 daes?

okay lets start frm last thurs..

Thursday- left my thumbdrive in th sch librry when i went thr for el..(went to ask n muahaha got it back on tue..) thx librarian (:

Friday- went back for POP..uhh..it was..no comments?

felt light headed..so ya..eheh..had fun wif bad egg,wilson n 2e av gang + whoever that was at th backstage female changing rm..jeezz..was realli funny lorhs!!..had a great time thr..

Saturday- nth much..even so,dun wanna talk bout it ><

SUNDAY- freak lors!..went to clementi wif my sis for tuition @ 8 in th morning?

hah..mother came 2 wake mii up..overslept cus nvr set alarm hahas..

after tuition,went to JP to shop shop n buy gift for mother's bdae..

i fell 2 steps down th escalator at JP2..wtfreaking hell..

so pai sehh..haha..thr was this guy bout 10/15 steps down hu kept looking at mii asking if i was okayy..

haha made a lotta noise :Xthen sld i credit my jeans?..if not i wld have been hurt more..my back still hurts now okays! went home..then chose to stay at home while th rest of th photographers went to marina barrage..

yea..sld hav gone wif them, anws got bored then tried to fry this dough that was made up of glutinious + rice flour wif my aunt..it exploded? right in my face summore..was quite calm so i told my aunt 'ohh that thing exploded'

i washed th oil off..got hotter n hotter sia ): ended up scalding my hands,wrist,shoulder n forehead..

yea thats how lucky i can get..mind not conneted to my body..sometimes i dun even realise what im doing..
Monday- sch as usual..cant rmb much..Tuesday- rained heavily..rev-up was cancelled..ohh so sad.. hahas..got drenched while pressing traffic light?but yea..its been quite sum time since i last played in th rain..miss those days.Wednesday- haha..had el + mt paper 1..okayy la..nth bout it..then waited for mr chia to give us ava shirts hee (: i was th impatient one..went to staff rm outside..checked stock and sorted th sizes..started giving out..crapped together..haha then mr chia started shouting at eric..jeremy came back,(he was pissed wif th font)hahas..then all crap down thr make so much noise disturb others studying..hee went home aft a while..then again,what is mama san? hahs..i dunno th meaning..Thursday- almost overslept..set alarm set correct time but rong date :X den chiong go sh..hahas went to th study area thr to do art but then got pissed by th pl thr..so asked qw help mii draw key then went up ontrol rm listen music and do art..and i forgot all bout my duty..was like shocked when i looked at th time..freaked..then went back to class..chaos as usual..had art lessson,was funny lors..

Friday- later going to night safari with my small aunt, her lao gong,big aunt and sis..yippee (:

now blogging..sian..

p.s I LOVE MY AVA SHIRT (:

Uppdatte

2009-03-20T20:10:00.002+08:00

hmm..been rather overly busy this whole week..

mon tue had AVA camp which was whoo hoo..had a hell load of fun..

hahas..i wan camp again!!!!

ok then..wed had choir frm 8.30 - 6+ went to kranji camp to practice wif yusof sumthing sumthing sch,yuan ching and new town sec for NDP..cluster A traning 1..

fun but was tiring esp aft amp..thur choir again frm 10 - 6+ went to YMS for exchange program wif swiss cottage n damai sec..good..alot to b learnt but arrgg realli tired ahh..

then went back todae again frm 1 - 5+ for external conductor exchange..hmm..

okayy la..nth much to sae..oni noe i kept yawning again n again hahas..

mus keep in mind what he told us to do..a good experiene tho..

lucky tmr no hoir practice cancelled cus no1 cld take it le..too tired alr..

so can start doin hw le..which i havent even touch 1 bit..die le..

oh ya..lost my purse on tue jsu when i was abt to go hme..

what damn rotten luck..whatevas hai..all my cards thumbdrive master keys..

blame myself for being so careless..tme mayb go make new atm card n ez link card bahh..

if i have th time lors..ok thats all for now..

happy hols every1 mus do hw horrs..

jiayous (=

im lost,forget it

2009-02-28T13:54:00.003+08:00

was supposed to go to school today..but i didnt
had to stay home to 'commemorate' my grandma's 1 mth
haiss..i wanted to go to sch..realli..
it wld realli had taken my mind off things..
dun wanna stay hme these few daes..
dunno y..i jus wanna lose myself in my ccas..
forget everything..
now th oni thing tat gets my going to sch is my cca n boy♥
i dunno what i sld do..how to continue..
im tired..

once upon a fren

2009-02-28T13:51:00.002+08:00

i jus feel rotton..
i wld appreciate if you do nt rub it in..
im dissappointed..i've given up..
i lost hope..im hurt..
congrats you have acheived ur goal yea..

Upddate

2009-02-24T18:31:00.004+08:00

here's an update of what i'v been doing this week..
tho its oni tue today hahas!
mayb abit of last week too hehes..
hmm..dun tink i rmb much of last week..
watched cabin rehearsals..funny..boring..ok lahh
choir..was fun..tiring..still surviving lols!!
ava..fell in love wif th new equipment..hahas!
on weds..n tink fri??..nt sure lahh..some daes
nid 2 go down to cca branch 2 learn cheaography for ndp '09
hmm..hope its fun(=
will b a gd experience bahh..hehe
look forward to it(=
1st practice is tmr..making my way thr to queenstown mrt frm pasir panjang cus halfway at learning journey(:
hope i dun lose my wayy ahh..mayb sld take cab down..yea..
training till 6..make my way hme myself..
oni c boy in th morning): sad sad
tats all for now..nth 2 post naywaes..

sumthing 2 say

2009-02-08T14:50:00.003+08:00

after all tat has happened..i realli hope tat 2E will change for the better..
more unity..more forgiveness..more understanding..
i wish to see more smiles around in class..
we mus stay strong no matter wat happens bcus we mus b thr for one another ok..
lets jus hope thr wont b another episode like this again..

2E dun fool around when im gone (=

2009-01-25T20:31:00.000+08:00

hello ppl
july here.. my grandma passed away ytd so ill b flyin back tmr
ill b gone for almost 2 weeks(i noe u guys r happy!)
here r some instructions 4 every1 yea pls take note
Firstly ~ xinhui n dee pls coordinate n assist th chairs in maintaining PEACE n ORDER in th class when im nt thr.
Secondly ~ 2E boys pls grow up esp huangpapa, dee pls ensure tat th boys dun change places JESMOND DUN U EVEN THINK ABOUT CHANGING PLACES WIF VALARINE WHEN IM NT THR. AND WEISHENG DUN TINK OF TAKING MY PLACE TOO HAHAS..
Thirdly ~ Qiwei, Junying,Zijian,Junhao,dun any O how pon class n cca n b on ur best behaviour alrites(=
Fourth ~ xinxin pls help mii put all my homework all tat in a box..
Fifth ~ SIWEI!! pls explain to mr samuel on my behalf thank you..
Sixth ~ 2E dun fight wif one another over insignificant things yea promise mii k,listen 2 ur chairs + xinhui n dee,its nt easy for them, i hope u guys understand..
Senventh ~ Amirul pls look over all matters in class i noe u can do it Ex VC! n s 4 our pw things ill continue doing th PPT send info orr anything u wanna noe 2 my email yea? :) plus dun fool around in class okayys..
Eighth ~ 2E dun piss off ur teachers okay,JIAYOUS for th upcomin tests..ill miss u ppl loads!!many loves!!
Ninth ~ tats all for now..i got stm cant remember things well..ill edit again when i've thought of st..(nobody is 2 edit tis post okayy)
Many loves, July♥

2009-01-20T16:09:00.004+08:00

~post deleted~

1st week of sch

2009-01-11T16:28:00.002+08:00

1st week of school was '!!!' mann
so busy..but was fun too..cool and exciting new teachers
had CCA fair on fri..tired but had loads of fun..many seniors came back too
haha oso heard that st went rong wif th mic in th hall too..(fireworks)
but in quadrangle everything was smooth..
haha had fun shoutin come join AVA..those hu wan join AVA pls proceed to the flagpole..n bla bla' haha so now chiong my book reviews n book talk..
tatas

2008-12-11T14:31:00.001+08:00

lol..jus hu th hell r u?
ur wearing my patience thin..
pls taq wif ur name..
dun tell mii ur parents din gav u a name..

Tagged by Zhixuan

2008-12-09T13:23:00.004+08:00

1.Are you in love?
-No..

2.Does the person know you love himher?
-How 2 noe,wen i lurvv no1?? lolxx

3.What if the person rejects you?
-lol..so wat..its not my loss..

4.Who are your best friends?
-They noe hu they r..XXD

5.Will you die for your friends?
-Mayb..IDK..nvr happened..hahax

6.Who would you save?Your best friends/boy girlfriend?
-On land both can la..in water..c i can save hu lol..L0L

7.If you had a choice, who would you want to be?
-Umm..nvr realli tot bout it..

8.Would you watch a horror or comedy film?
-..Umm horror if there's sum1 hu's gonna acc mii tru th nite..

9.If you had 3 wishes, what would they be?
-The world 2 be free frm suffering;
-The world 2 b at peace;
-Every1 around mii 2 b happy always

10.Spread to 10 people.
-?
-??
-???
-????
-?????
-??????
-???????
-????????
-?????????
-peeps hu hav too much time on their hands

2008-12-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

haha tmr startin maths tuition alr..
fun...if nt sian until die liao
BOREDOM KILLS ya noe!!
wan watch tv stop here..

not now, not ever

2008-12-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

july's not been posting
UPDATE LA DEYY! :D
i wont reveal my name.
guess it out yourselves ehh
*hint* i'm her classmate :D

well, whatever.
just keeping her blog alive.
bye people :D

MIA

2008-11-28T14:11:00.000+08:00

wun b postin 4 quite sometime
sian..dun wan post
lazy liao...

Tagged by jieying babe

2008-11-09T20:27:00.008+08:00

QUIZ

A.People Who Have Been Tagged Must Write Their Answer In Their Blog.B.Tag 8 People To Do This Quiz And Those Who Are Tagged Cannot Refuse. These People Must State Who They Are Tagged By And Cannot Tag The Person Whom They Were Tagged By.C.Continue This Game By Sending It To Other People ;

1.?

2.??

3.???

4.????

5. ?????

6.??????

7.???????

8.????????

(nt gonna burden any1 2 do tis quiz) :}

1. What Have You Been Doing Recently?- Sch stuff

2. Do You Ever Turn Your Cell Phone Off?- Ya

3. What Happened At 10am Today?- 4gort?

4. When Did You Last Cry?- Just?

5. Believe In Fate/Destiny?- Yes

6. What Do You Want In Your Life Now?- Freedom

7. Do You Tend To Make Relationship Complicated?- Dunno/Mayb?IDK

8. Are You Wearing Anything You Borrow From Someone?- No

9. What Was The Last Movie You Caught?- Dunno

10. Does That Person Know You Like Him/Her?- i rather b single

11. Who Always Make Me Laugh?- My frens

12. Do You Speak Languages Other Than English?- Chinese/Burmese

13. Favourite Website(s)?- IDK

14. What Are You Doing Tomorrow?- Performin at St Luke's

15. What Do You Think You Are Like?- ermm IDK

16. Who Will You Choose To Die With?- Myself - duhh

17. Where Have You Been Today?- Padang Lot 1 Vivo

18. What Game Do You Play Often?- Nth

19. Who Are You Missing Right Now?- No1

20. If You Have To Choose Between A Friend And Love, Who Will You Choose?- Frens-nvr left mii wen i nidded them

21. What Are You Doing Now?- Doing This Quiz :D

22. Which Primary School Are You From?- BoonLayGardenPrimary

23. Name Three Colour That You Like.- Black White Red

24. What Emoticon Do You Like To Show?- ...

25. What Is Life To You?- At times i dun get it at all

26. If You Have Something Troubling You, What Will You Do?- Solve it larrs

27. Who Did You Last Chat With On MsN Today- Still chattin

28. Who Do You Admire The Most?- _ _'''IDK

29. Which Month Were You Born In?- Damn obvious??

30. How Are You Feeling Right Now?- Calm..tinkin alot

31. What Is The Time Now?- 3.40p.m

32. What Kind Of Person Do You Think The One Who Tag You Is?- Wonderful carin cheerful babe wif lottas love

33. What Colour Would You Use To Dye Your Hair?- Brown n light brown??

34. Why Are You Doing This Test?- Tat babe tagged mii

35. What Do You Do When Your Moody?- Alot..

36. At Which Stage Do You Wish To Get Married?- Around 26-30

37. Who Is More Important To You?- ...??

38. If Today Is The Last Day Of Your Life, What Will You Do?- C every1 4 th last time

39. Who Is/Are The People/Person You Trust The Most?- GOD..

40. Do You Believe In Seeing The Rainbow After The Rain?- Not now aft...

41. If You Have A Dream To Come True, What Would It Be?- Idunbelieveindreamsnow

42. What Is Your Goal For This Year?- 4 everything 2 b bac s it used 2 b(morelykawish)

43. Do You Believe In Eternity Love?- At least i used to..

44. What Feeling Do You Love Most?- 2 love n b loved

45. Do You Really Think It's Global Warming Now?- YA haters mann..

46. What Feel Do You Hate The Most?- Emoin alone..

47. Do You Like Doing Quizzes?- NO..

48. Do You Believe In Gods?- Yes..

49. Who Cares For You The Most?- IDK??i stoped believin in every1

50. What Do You Think Is The Most Important Thing In Your Life?- Love Care Concern

51. What Will You Bring When You Fight?- Hu dosent bring anger??

52. What Have You Regretted Doing In Your Whole Life?- Steadin

53. What Do You Do If Nobody Cared For You Any Longer?- Dunno,hope tat dae wun come?

54. What Will You Do If Your Boyfriend/Girlfriend Two-Timed You?- Die

55. How Do You Feel Now?- Nth

2008-11-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

do i deserve 2 b hurt by u ppl all the time?
tomorrow is not always better than yesterday.

nth much

2008-10-31T18:11:00.003+08:00

haissss...
havent been posting these few daes cuz
been preety busy..
so tired lolxx..realli dead beat..
still stressed up even tho sch hols
better find 1 dae soon 2 go out wif frens...